It was a Wednesday morning, I had the day off of work so no alarm was set. I got up, poured myself some coffee, fed my demon cat and began to prepare to meditate for the first time. I set my timer on my phone to 5 minutes, downloaded a weird meditation playlist on apple music, crossed my legs and closed my eyes.
My mind was constantly going and wouldn’t shut up. I was thinking: What am I going to do today? Maybe go shopping? No I need to focus. Focus on the music….What’s that sound? Think of the light Alex, beaming down through the top of your head. Does this even work? Etc. Out of the 5 long minutes, I probably cleared my mind twice. Everytime my mind cleared I ruined it by thinking, “I did it!”
After meditating, I didn’t feel any different. I just simply thought that it was sort of relaxing and I went about my day. I got full glam with makeup, bomb outifit, and I will say I was definitely feeling myself. I was going to go shopping because what else do you do in this small town on your day off? That’s all I seem to ever do in my free time. If someone asked me what my hobby was, I don’t have an answer. Shopping (is that even a hobby???)?
As I walked out the door with my bag and sunglasses in my hand, I stopped in front of the mirror and took some selfies. I posted my OOTD (outfit of the day) on Instagram and tagged where each piece of my outfit was from. A lightbulb went off in my head. Why don’t I start a blog? I have always thought to myself how cool it would be to start that youtube channel and I’ve always encouraged (well begged) my sister to start a blog. I was sooooo hurt when she would turn down the idea. After all these years, it has never occurred to me. Is the reason I wanted her to start a blog because deep deep down I wanted to? YES!
So I put down my sunglasses and purse and fired up good ol’ google. I typed in “how to start a blog.” – original, I know. I searched for hours and was looking for some loop hole or trick because it just seemed too easy. Yes, it was the easy part but picking a good domain name was awful. I began brainstorming and was picking out ridiculous names like: sisteralex, curvyfashionista, peaceloveandalex, keepitweirdwithalex, etc. At one point my mom said “britches and bums.” We may have been delusional. I finally decided on SimplyAlex, but that was taken so I went with thesimplelifeofalex (not to be confused with Paris and Nicole on the Simple Life).
For some reason I was so nervous I shit three times that day and could barely sleep that night. When I woke up the next morning the dreaded shit hit me again. Why is this making me so nervous? It’s just a blog. Well….I am putting myself out there for other people’s enjoyment and/or judgement. But really, what do I care? I am really only doing this because I enjoy it. So here I am, writing this blog, with no followers and no readers. Here’s to a new beginning!